Broken

OH dear it has been a while since I updated my blog. I have such big plans for this little blog and one day I will get it done! I will give you a brief update to my life.

1) I'm engaged!!!  On New's Year Eve  while in Winter Park my boyfriend of 3 years got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. I kinda blacked out from excitement but got out the "yes" sound and then proceeded to dance!!! We set a date for July 21, 2012 which means I have been in wedding planning crazy mode for the last 2 months. 

2) Its paper fashion show season. I have been working on the Paper Fashion show managing the design teams. It is an amazing event even though at times I want to pull my hair out it is all worth it. Check it out here www.adcd.com.

Then it all came crashing down... and I was forced to slow my ass down, literally. I broke my collar bone. Not just broke it but separated it and had to get a plate and 5 screws placed in my arm to put it  back together.

This is the picture before the screws.  Things that use to take me seconds now takes me minutes. I have been told the that "Universe always gives you what you need." I believe that Universe is God so I have been thinking why did I need this?  Its not "oh why me, poor me" kinda question but rather what is the purpose of this annoyance? Here are some conclusions I've reached:

1) I needed to slow down. With all the wedding maddness and work and everything I really wasn't taking the time to enjoy being engaged! This is suppose to be fun right? Not stressful and a mad dash to get everything done. Designing my wedding invites and save the dates became another stress on my to do list instead of a soul searching experience to find a visual representation of Cody and I. Before I actually became engaged I looked at wedding blogs religiously dreaming of the invites that I would come up with for my wedding. Now that the time was here and I didn't want to even think about my wedding invites.  The last two weeks since I moved at the pace of a turtle I really have had time to sit back and dig deep for my wedding invites.

2) I realized how poorly I used my time before. There was always tomorrow. I'll do it tomorrow, I'll start this project tomorrow.  However tomorrow could leave you  with only one working arm for a period of time. My goal/dream is life is become a successful surface/graphic designer. One of these projects included  to start a line of tea towels and textiles.  I have done nothing to start these, they just remain in my head. So since I've been on the couch for almost a week I realized why the "blank" didn't I start that before? I have the time but I wasn't making it. It's the same with this blog. I have such big dreams with this blog yet I haven't updated it in months!!!!!!!  Taking a moment to sit back and think about things has really been eye opening.

3) Lastly, I need to start living in the moment and stop taking for granted the life I have.  Its amazing how something as little as a broken arm can make you realize what you have. 

Who knew being broken would put me back together?

Amanda